"The books that the world calls immoral are books that show the world its own shame."
- The Picture Of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde
"Look at you - so confident, so insecure, so cocky, so very shy."
- Julie Goodyear
"There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think well."
- Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
"You think that if you don’t find a lover soon, no one will want you."
- Edmund White
"Nobody can tell what I suffer! But it is always so . Those who do not complain are never pitied."
- Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
"Sometimes people just disappear no matter how much we wish they'd stay. And I keep thinking about the afternoon in April when we stood together against the garage with cherry lollipops in our cheeks and the sun in our eyes. And even though I knew you didn't love me the way I wanted you to, you loved me with everything you had and that was enough.
And I remember last Autumn when we were only strangers, and it doesn't seem much different now. And I remember the way my tears flooded down my cheeks and you said, "I'm here for you. I will always be here for you."
I will always be here for you, I will always be here for you, I will always be here for you.
And now my tears are flooding down my cheeks just like they did then. And I just wish you loved me like you did when we stood against the garage, even thought it wasn't the way I wanted you to. And I wish you never became a stranger again.
"I'm here for you. I will always be here for you.""
"What do I tell you?
I could tell you so much more,
if we were face to face,
if our limbs were close enough,
in proximity to imagine what it,
would feel like if they were touching,
to want them to be touching."
"I want you to notice when I'm not around."
- Creep, Radiohead
"I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."
- The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky
"All good books have one thing in common - they are truer than if they had really happened."
- Ernest Hemingway
"I don’t hear music anymore.
My ears are tired of all the pictures in the words,
'cause you are in them still."
"Coyness is nice,
and coyness can stop you,
from saying all the things in life you’d like to.
So, if there’s something you’d like to try,
if there’s something you’d like to try,
ask me, I won’t say no, how could I?
Ask me, ask me, ask me,
ask me, ask me, ask me."
- Ask, The Smiths
"I love it when this random feeling of positivity pops into my mind. Out of nowhere I feel like all of my problems are going to go away and I am filled with this amazing, uplifting energy. Never mind. It's gone."
""You know, if you stay up late, you're just going to make it harder for yourself."
"Maybe, but I like it that way. I like the numbness that comes with being exhausted, the oblivion. If I'm tired, I have a qualified excuse to keep to myself at home, to evade the constant problems that don't concern me anyway. Sometimes I don't even need to try to block things out, the exhaustion does it for me. And I like that.""
"Don't bother me with all of your reality."
"You realise you are not special. You have struggled into existence and are now slipping silently out of it."
"My life is just one massive, vicious circle of obsessions."
"I met a wonderful new man! He’s fictional, but you can’t have everything."
- Cecilia, The Purple Rose Of Cairo
"Do you think you miss the things you love, or just love the things you miss?"
"The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That’s the only lasting thing you can create."
- Choke, Chuck Palahniuk
"I’m not stable enough emotionally to even hug you without meaning it with every ounce of me."
- Jenette Ulyas
"I always found that I’m not very good to myself when I’m in a relationship, it’s something that I need to work on. Even though there is a lot of pain and drama, I almost ask for more in a way."
- Tyler Glenn
"Here we again, I kind of want to be more than friends."
- Animal, Neon Trees
"There is only one important point you must keep in your mind and let it be your guide. No matter what people call you, you are just who you are. Keep to this truth. You must ask yourself how is it you want to live your life. We live and we die, this is the truth that we can only face alone. No one can help us, not even the Buddha. So consider carefully, what prevents you from living the way you want to live your life?"
- The Dalai Lama
"Why do people have to be this lonely? What’s the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?"
- Haruki Murukami
"No one wants to admit we’re addicted to music. That’s just not possible. No one’s addicted to music and television and radio. We just need more of it, more channels, a larger screen, more volume. We can’t bear to be without it, but no, nobody’s addicted. We could turn it off anytime we wanted."
- Lullaby, Chuck Palahniuk
"First you’re nervous and then you die."
"We are each of an unsocial, taciturn disposition, unwilling to speak, unless we expect to say something that will amaze the whole room, and be handed down to posterity with all the eclat of a proverb."
- Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
"Volunteer for everything because that way lies adventure."
- Joanna Lumley
"Oh! I heard you before; but I could not immediately determine what to say in reply. You wanted me, I know, to say “Yes,” that you might have the pleasure of despising my taste; but I always delight in overthrowing those kind of schemes, and cheating a person of their premeditated contempt."
- Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
"It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul. And so the decision-making of daily life involves not, as in normal affairs, shifting from on annoying situation to another less annoying - or from boredom to activity - but from moving from pain to pain."
"I don’t believe in ghosts per say, but I find the concept interesting. Essentially ghosts are people that have come back from the dead. Strip away the supernatural elements and what are you left with? People! This affirms what I’ve always believed—That nothing is scarier than people."
- Kazuo Umezu
"Extroverts and introverts have radically different takes on people’s behaviour. The extroverts don’t disguise their disdain for the uncommunicative introverts, who selfishly refuse to keep the discussion alive; they cannot fathom why their mute colleagues don’t do their bit to carry some of the conversational load. At the same time, the introverts have nothing but contempt for their garrulous counterparts; why not, they wonder, wait until you’ve got something worth saying before opening your mouth."
- Sam Gosling
"In our daily lives we are like characters in a play: we take on roles and present a front. It is easier to stay in character than to react authentically. When we act and react, we can draw on a well-known and rehearsed script associated with the character we play."
- Sam Gosling
"Wait, they don't love like I love you."
"That someone so great could change so much for a thing as stupid as a wounded heart, and the need to be loved…you will not understand that until you are older."
- Baz Luhrmann
"Identity: It is a story you tell about yourself to make sense out of what has happened in the past and the kind of person you are now. From this perspective, it is not essential that the story be true."
- Sam Gosling
"Contrary to what you might expect, getting to know someone won’t inevitably bring you closer to that person."
- Sam Gosling
"Reality is a prison."
"It’s true, I am afraid of dying. I am afraid of the world moving forward without me, of my absence going unnoticed, or worse, being some natural force propelling life on. Is it selfish? Am I such a bad person for dreaming of a world that ends when I do? I don’t mean the world ending with respect to me, but every set of eyes closing with mine."
- Everything Is Illuminated, Jonathan Safran Foer
"I think that’s what’s wrong with the world. No one says what they feel, they always hold it inside. They’re sad, but they don’t cry. They’re happy, but they don’t dance or sing. They’re angry, but they don’t scream. Because if they do, they feel ashamed. And that’s the worst feeling in the world. So everyone walks with their heads down and no one sees how beautiful the sky is."
"We start off with high hopes, then we bottle it. We realize that we’re all going to die, without really finding out the big answers. We develop all those long-winded ideas which just interpret the reality of our lives in different ways, without really extending our body of worthwhile knowledge, about the big things, the real things. Basically, we live a short disappointing life; and then we die. We fill up our lives with shite, things like careers and relationships to delude ourselves that it isn’t all totally pointless."
- Trainspotting, Irvine Welsh
"The moment had passed, the door between the lives we could have led and the lives we led had shut in our faces."
- The History Of Love, Nicola Krauss
"On the good days, I feel like I get it, like it all makes sense. I can stay in the moment. I don’t have to control everything in the future and I believe everything is gonna work out fine. On the bad days, I just want to grab the phone and start dialing numbers. I want to pull my hair and run through the streets screaming."
"Date a girl who doesn’t read. Find her in the weary squalor of a Midwestern bar. Find her in the smoke, drunken sweat, and varicolored light of an upscale nightclub. Wherever you find her, find her smiling. Make sure that it lingers when the people that are talking to her look away. Engage her with unsentimental trivialities. Use pick-up lines and laugh inwardly. Take her outside when the night overstays its welcome. Ignore the palpable weight of fatigue. Kiss her in the rain under the weak glow of a streetlamp because you’ve seen it in film. Remark at its lack of significance. Take her to your apartment. Dispatch with making love. Fuck her.
Let the anxious contract you’ve unwittingly written evolve slowly and uncomfortably into a relationship. Find shared interests and common ground like sushi, and folk music. Build an impenetrable bastion upon that ground. Make it sacred. Retreat into it every time the air gets stale, or the evenings get long. Talk about nothing of significance. Do little thinking. Let the months pass unnoticed. Ask her to move in. Let her decorate. Get into fights about inconsequential things like how the fucking shower curtain needs to be closed so that it doesn’t fucking collect mold. Let a year pass unnoticed. Begin to notice.
Figure that you should probably get married because you will have wasted a lot of time otherwise. Take her to dinner on the forty-fifth floor at a restaurant far beyond your means. Make sure there is a beautiful view of the city. Sheepishly ask a waiter to bring her a glass of champagne with a modest ring in it. When she notices, propose to her with all of the enthusiasm and sincerity you can muster. Do not be overly concerned if you feel your heart leap through a pane of sheet glass. For that matter, do not be overly concerned if you cannot feel it at all. If there is applause, let it stagnate. If she cries, smile as if you’ve never been happier. If she doesn’t, smile all the same.
Let the years pass unnoticed. Get a career, not a job. Buy a house. Have two striking children. Try to raise them well. Fail, frequently. Lapse into a bored indifference. Lapse into an indifferent sadness. Have a mid-life crisis. Grow old. Wonder at your lack of achievement. Feel sometimes contented, but mostly vacant and ethereal. Feel, during walks, as if you might never return, or as if you might blow away on the wind. Contract a terminal illness. Die, but only after you observe that the girl who didn’t read never made your heart oscillate with any significant passion, that no one will write the story of your lives, and that she will die, too, with only a mild and tempered regret that nothing ever came of her capacity to love.
Do those things, god damnit, because nothing sucks worse than a girl who reads. Do it, I say, because a life in purgatory is better than a life in hell. Do it, because a girl who reads possesses a vocabulary that can describe that amorphous discontent as a life unfulfilled—a vocabulary that parses the innate beauty of the world and makes it an accessible necessity instead of an alien wonder. A girl who reads lays claim to a vocabulary that distinguishes between the specious and soulless rhetoric of someone who cannot love her, and the inarticulate desperation of someone who loves her too much. A vocabulary, god damnit, that makes my vacuous sophistry a cheap trick.
Do it, because a girl who reads understands syntax. Literature has taught her that moments of tenderness come in sporadic but knowable intervals. A girl who reads knows that life is not planar; she knows, and rightly demands, that the ebb comes along with the flow of disappointment. A girl who has read up on her syntax senses the irregular pauses—the hesitation of breath—endemic to a lie. A girl who reads perceives the difference between a parenthetical moment of anger and the entrenched habits of someone whose bitter cynicism will run on, run on well past any point of reason, or purpose, run on far after she has packed a suitcase and said a reluctant goodbye and she has decided that I am an ellipsis and not a period and run on and run on. Syntax that knows the rhythm and cadence of a life well lived.
Date a girl who doesn’t read because the girl who reads knows the importance of plot. She can trace out the demarcations of a prologue and the sharp ridges of a climax. She feels them in her skin. The girl who reads will be patient with an intermission and expedite a denouement. But of all things, the girl who reads knows most the ineluctable significance of an end. She is comfortable with them. She has bid farewell to a thousand heroes with only a twinge of sadness.
Don’t date a girl who reads because girls who read are the storytellers. You with the Joyce, you with the Nabokov, you with the Woolf. You there in the library, on the platform of the metro, you in the corner of the café, you in the window of your room. You, who make my life so god damned difficult. The girl who reads has spun out the account of her life and it is bursting with meaning. She insists that her narratives are rich, her supporting cast colorful, and her typeface bold. You, the girl who reads, make me want to be everything that I am not. But I am weak and I will fail you, because you have dreamed, properly, of someone who is better than I am. You will not accept the life that I told of at the beginning of this piece. You will accept nothing less than passion, and perfection, and a life worthy of being storied. So out with you, girl who reads. Take the next southbound train and take your Hemingway with you. I hate you. I really, really, really hate you."
- Charles Warnke